Monday, June 29, 2009

Rise from the ashes

So after all my jewelry inventory for the summer shows was stolen from our truck on the way back to our summer home, I have been bummed!  I didn't know where to start, where to begin really, in making new items.  I had no motivation, no drive, no incentives to make more inventory.  Wow, what a number some thieves did on us. They got all our motorcycle gear as well.  But when thieves steal your hard work, sweat and tears, you have to dig real deep to find the stuff they talk about in books and movies.  First you have to let go of the hurt, and loss, then you hope you can find a way to get motivated again to create some beautiful pieces.  That's where true friendship comes in. I have a friend in Victoria, BC, Jill Rockwell,  that came over for three days  a week ago, and is now back for three days, to help me get out of my clouded head, and design.  So many of you have sent the warmest messages, I truly appreciate the kind words and thoughts.  I haven't had a loss of this type before, and didn't expect it to take so long to pull myself out of the haze.  But I'm understanding more about trauma, it is real, that haze stuff, believe me.  You can't tell your brain to design, it has to come from the heart.  I don't think I really understood that before.

So from the heart, new and better pieces are developing.  I recently learned to etch from Stephanie Lee, and am using that repeatedly.  It is such a wonderful method for preparing metals, and you get the most rich and delicious looks from it.  I have always wanted to try a hinged bracelet, since I learned the technique from Susan Lenart Kazmer, so today I did it.  This is especially rewarding today, because I was able to think it, feel it, and complete the project.  I could not do this two weeks ago!  Having the drive and inspiration back is a total result of kindness and support from friends.  So thank you friends.  You mean the world to me.
Now back to work, I feel another bracelet coming on!!


farmlady said...

This is just beautiful Riki. I love the etching. The bracelet is so much more unique because of the etching.
I'm glad you are feeling better. You've been violated. Having something stolen from you that means so much, that's part of you, is like being attacked physically. It will take some time to recover. Making your art will help. Take care.

Debbie / Prairie Emporium said...

Riki, your new bracelet is awesome!!!
I think I know what you are talking about, the feeling of loosing everything. In 2007 a tornado took our town, I had jewelry in 2 shops and lost all of it. It is a feeling you just can't explain to people and so hard to get in the mind frame to be creative again. Good luck and it looks like you are on your way, you did a great job on the bracelet.

diane said...

This hinged bracelet is just beautiful. You did a great job! I am so glad you are back....I have missed you =)

Stephani Gorman said...

Hey Riki! So happy to hear you are able to function again...I can't imagine how hard this has been for you! This is an awesome piece and look forward to seeing more of your beautiful work! Big Hug, Steff

Diana said...

OMG girlfriend you are coming back better than ever. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your new work...simply beautiful. Congratulations!!

HappyDayArt! said...

That is terrible news and I am so sorry. Never keep anything valuable in your car... you know it but then you think "oh, nothing will happen" and then just once it does and it's devastating. All those gorgeous pieces! Well, it made a big vacuum for new things to be made and I see that they are even more beautiful. It is a small price to pay for a stronger spirit. Keep on making them Riki. xo Catherine